The days are fast approaching. On March 12th Hannah will go for surgery again to have her 5th line put in before transplant. On the 13th we start hard treatment to wipe her bone marrow out which will completely suck the life out of her.
Hannah is at bc children's right now seeing dentist, audiology, respiratory, dermatologist, ECG, Echo, GFR, ophthalmology and to meet with DR Goddard our radiologist to insure Hannah is fully ready for transplant and all organs have a good fighting chance. Then on March 19th I will go into Vancouver General Hospital for surgery. I will have 1 Litre of stem cells extracted from my body in the operating room. Then my stems cells will be transferred to BC Children's Hospital where Hannah will be awaiting them. I know I will wake up crying and very scared and just wanting my little girl. We will be separated for the day.
I still can't believe Hannah's last chance at life is all on my shoulders. My body badly needs to fight to keep her here. All I can do is give it my all and hope that all this suffering pays off and she gets to live the life she so badly deserves.
The first 30 days is where our fears will lay afraid of her organs failing and her to die in transplant. If Hannah can fight and survive the 30 days we will keep hope that cancer will not return within the next 100 days we live in hospital. If Hannah can beat both organ failure and a relapse we will return home come July and hopefully stay there. No more chemotherapy can happen. No more radiation. No alternative options. Hannah's body will not be strong enough for anything more.
This is so scary and I can't believe my baby, my best friend in the world has to go through all of this just for a chance at life. No child should have to fight so hard to stay on earth. No matter what, Rob and I will be by Hannah's side fighting to keep her here. We love this innocent child so much and can not picture life without her.
We love you Hannah Louise day. Hopefully all your fighting will be over soon.